Today I dailed your number.

Each passing day, I crave to hear your voice, your laughter, feel your touch, and see your smile, but each day that passes I realize how far you are from me, if I had my way, you'd still be in my arms, not miles away from me, it wasn't my wish to give up on us but yours, against my wish I agreed because you can't force anyone to be with you no matter how much you want them to stay, crying and wishing that a miracle might happen that will change their mind, the thought of you been in another's arm kills me slowly, but then again you'd be happy with them and that I can live with, because your happiness matters more to me.
Was I not good enough? Was I not worth fighting for? Was my love not sufficient for you? My questions remains unanswered, seeing other people happy with their loved ones hurts, not feeling that tight feeling in my stomach I felt each time I saw you, I miss it. I miss crying and falling asleep in your arms it was my most favorite thing in the world,knowing in your arms am safe, in your arms nothing could touch me, I never knew the true meaning of pain till you walked out on me leaving me no choice, each passing day I pray for time to go faster so I could sleep cause that's the only time I am at ease.
Today I dialed your number to check on you, to hear you say you miss me, but couldn't press the call button, sometimes I do this  upto 30 times in a day, but today I dialed your number for the last time, because I realized I no longer mean anything to you.